WE CAN'T STOP X'D

Honestly?! I can't stop thinking about that fucking person! Idk why! WHY?!? BAKIT NGA BA?! ANO BA TO?! HAHAHA. Tanga! Kalandian mo lang yan Ainna! asdfghjkl;! Tama naaaaa! Hahaha medyo sumosobra nko?! Hindi to pwedeng mag exceed!!! Masama na to kung mag exceed! HAHAHA! Pigil Pigil din?! Kung ibuhos ko kaya attention ko sa iba?! BOBBA GINAWA MO NA YAN! WALA EH! Bullshit. Enough na ah? HINDI TO PWEDE HAHAHA TANDAAN MO YAN AINNA UKINANA! HINDI PWEDDDDDEEEEEEE! Malamang You're disgusting -.- You think it'll be fine?! WELL NO!! IT WON'T!!! You have to understand that it won't. Paulit ulit? Oo ah para damang dama ko! HAHAHA! Tawa nalang tayo. Hahahahahahaha! NAPAKA NONSENSE. Sa totoo lang. Ayun. Wala lang! 3% parin. Malamang pinipigilan ko sarili ko. BECAUSE IT CAN'T HAPPEN! IT WON'T HAPPEN! AND MOST OF ALL........................................................................................................................................................................................ I REALLY DON'T KNOW. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!

I'm running of of words! This Shitty throat!!!! Luh Simula nung gumising ako ganto na?! Masakit ah! Nakaka asar! SOMETHING'S WRONG ! SOMETHING'S DRIPPING IN MY THROAT! Hindi naman sipon?! Hala yuck. Ewan ko but It tastes like blood?! Medyo masakit na din. I REALLY DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON!!!!! I just wanna fucking drive, because yeah driving is fun! Pero gusto ko nasa Passenger seat siya. ODIBA?! PERFECT ROADTRIP!!!!!!!! OMFG!!!! X'D 

I JUST STARTED

Honestly I don't like what I'm doing to myself anymore! Haha! Shit. Medyo sumosobra na ako? Makulit? Halata na? WALA NA AINNA ALAM NA NIYA! MEDYO! OO ALAM KO ALAM NA NIYA MEDYO LANG NAMAN! ALAM MO KUNG BAKIT?! TANGA KA? GUSTO MO SIYA LAGI KASUAP EH WALA NGA EH?! SEND KA NG SEND. NO NGA DIBA?! Nagpapakatanga nanaman ako. SHIT LANG?! Bakasyon naman eh! Kayang kaya ko sabihin sakanya! Joke hindi kadi! Tanga! Mahirap yun! Mamaya pag 4th year hindi ka na niya papansinin HAHAHAHA! Iba na yung role mo sa buhay niya. Kung baga hindi na yung dating 'friends' HAHAHAHA! Parang nagiiwasan na kaya wag nalang no?! MASMAGANDANG MAGPAKA MANHID. HAHAHAHAHAHA! I DON'T EVEN FEEL ANYTHING YET?! IDK. I JUST DON'T KNOW. I'M LOSING CONTROL AGAIN. THIS IS BULLSHIT. PARDON MY LANGUAGE BUT I HAVE TO! AND IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT. YOU CAN JUST LEAVE MY BLOG! DUH! EASY AS THAT! HAHAHA MASUNGIT NA BA? OO AH! SORRY! I SWEAR I AM! >_______> I just....... idk! Sige na nga! Medyo 3% na may nararamdaman na ako?! UNTI LANG YAN AH! Grabe kayo?! Kasi naman. Ang kind niya, napaka friendly, kahit nagmumurahan na ng sobra sobra ok lang sakanya! Idk I just feel comfortable around that person. HAHAHA! LANDI NO?! I JUST DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMOREEEEE!!!! Parang gusto kong sabihin sakanya pero wag! WHAT A DUMB MOVE RIGHT?! WAG TALAGA AH! MALAMANG MAWAWALA YUNG FRIENDSHIP TSKA MANDIDIRI SIYA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! X'D NG SOBRA SOBRA AH?! HIGIT PA SA SOBRA GAGO! KAYA WAG NA! HAHAHA I EEXPRESS KO NALANG LAHAT LAHAT DITO KAYSA MALAMAN NIYA. TANGA KA AINNA. DITO PA NGA LANG HALATA NA EH! ANG BOBO MO TALAGA! HAAHAHAHA! K ang sakit ng ulo ko. Pero!!!! Ano kaya sasabihin niya pag nalaman niya?! Yan ang tanong ko! Malay ko tanggapin niya diba?! PERO ANG KINAKATAKUTAN KO.. IS LALAYO SIYA. HAHAHA! TAPOS LAST YEAR NA NAMIN. MASAKIT DIBA?! UK**** !!! Hihintayin ko nalang na malaman niya hahaha hihintayin ko nalang na tanungin niya sakin HAHAHAHAHA MAY GUSTO KA BA SAKIN?! KAHIT UNTI LANG?!! AY OO AH SASABIHIN KO LAHAT LAHAT!!!!!! PAPALAMPASIN KO PA BA YUNG CHANCE?! HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA! NABABAGTIT NA AKO GRABE! MAMATAY NKO NAKA STUCK DITO SA BAHAY! PERO TALAGA........... DAHIL SAKANIYA MEDYO BUMABALIK MY EMOTIONS ......... IDK WHY BUT YEAH! AS IN SIYA LANG! WALA NG IBA. MEDYO NAPAPASAYA NIYA DIN AKO. KAHIT GANUN. HAHA! EDI SYEPMRE GUSTO KO DIN SIYANG PASAYAHIN DIBA? I'M TRYING!!! 

I JUST STARTED 

Why did I? Because that person fucking deserves happiness! Instead of receiving all these bullshit around!

Making that person happy makes me happy na din! Idk why but yes!!!! :'(

and I'm sorry for myself SO BAD. 

Gusto niyo malaman kung sino siya?! PM ME HAHAHA! YES I WILL TELL YOU! 

AMORE 3/21/14

Ayoko na mag english nalang ako! hahaha.  Wait lang ah? Ginagawa ko kasi yung video. Mejj ang bagal kaya bumalik nalang ako dito sa blog HAHAHA! So ayun, this night was TOO fun. It was too fun I couldn't handle it. No one else could. BUT AT THE END, WE STILL DID OMG HAHAHAHA! May iyakan nga pero ok lang! Natapos din. Wala nkong masabi hahaha baka kung ano pang masabi ko. JOKE LANG! Ano ba?! haha game! Let me be honest muna, I didn't like it when they were screaming all the way TAPOS NASAKANILA PA YUNG MIC. Wanna know why? Kasi ngay ako yung nasasabihan -_- hahaha! Kung alam niyo lang naka ilang balik sila Koya para sabihin sakin na " Pakisabi bawasan nalang nila yung pagka wild " , " Pakisabi wag masyadong wild kasi baka may ma disgrasya " TAPOS AYUN, WALANG NAKINIG ABA PUTA HAHAHA! Joke. Ok lang kade! Basta you goys had fun although there were 'things' that happened in the middle of the night which was suppppeeerrrrr sad and idk how to call it? downheartedness? haahaha SHIT ANG DEEP! Desolation?! Heart-breaking?! Gloomy?! Down?! Low?! Blue?! Dejected?! Rejected?! Whatever Idfk how to call it. HAHAHA! Oh basta yan! Pero masaya. I think we kinda owe her big time. KUNG AYAW NIYO EDI WAG AKO NALANG. HAHAHAHA! SHIET! Joke :) Medyo napadrama nanaman ako. Well thanks to my good fucking friend I felt something again -.- She was literally crying over the phone and I'm like holy shit it's coming back wtf will I do?! Medyo nagpanic inside. Idk, I was also starting to cry hahahaha! Bullshit then. MANGIT <3 Naka ilang tawag ako pramis! HAHAHA HINDI KO NA MABILANG ;'D Wait bilangin ko sa phone ko ahhaha! (brb) 

THERE WE GO! HAHA I called my friend 21 times for fuck sake x'DD

eto oh wait yung oras. napaka tuloy tuloy.

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HAHAHA! ANG SAYA NG BUHAY KO DIBA? X'DD 

Pero masakit ah?! INIWAN NILA AKO LAHAT SA VENUE. BASANG BASA YUNG FLOOR. Kung baga ang kasama ko lang dun is my friend and mga staff. NAKAKAHIYA AH? PERO OK LANG. KINAYA KO NAMAN YUNG PAG PIRMA AT KAUSAP SAKANILA. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Medyo nakipagtawanan pa nga eh .. Medyo lang! hahaha pero sana maulit. Ang bait nila eh HAHAHAHAHA! Shit ang saya. Di ko lam kung gaano kasaya pero THE FUCK. ANG SAYA! HAHAHAHA! So far best night of 2014 LOOOL! ALL THANKS TO THAT ONE PERSON THAT MADE IT HAPPEN!! ;) 

Raffle was gone. Awarding pushed through x'D 

FACE OF THE NIGHT : ANTHEA MARRERO 

BEST DRESS : MARY JAYNE LIM

PROM KING & QUEEN : KYLE AVELLANA & KAYLEIGH INGRAM

One more thing before I exit my blog. HELLO PERSON HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! APIR TAYO JAN!!! joke -.- HAHAHAHA! If you didn't leave, this night would've been so fucking complete!! I so swear haha. But anyways! Thankyou! -punch HAHA! x

DUCES!!!! x

I DON'T LIKE MYSELF

Fml, seriously. Ge ainna! Gawin mo pa yan ha? ikakabuti yan ng lahat! Tanga ko ngay lol. Ayoko naaaaaaaa. If you want me back to my old self PLEASE DO HELP ME. I don't like myself atm. Napaka Bitch! Sorry ah? I had to say it. Baka mamaya may mangsumbong nanaman jan? Ganyan naman lagi eh! Shit ang sama ko! Naka ilan na ako sakanya.... I re-pay bullshit. Kaya tama naaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! LOOOOL! Masakit na ngay.. dafuq. So ano? I-eend ko tong year na to na madaming galit saakin... hindi lang pinapakita. OH ANO?! TOTOO! AMININ MO NA! HAHAHA! WAG MO NANG ITAGO. OK LANG. AT NANG MATAUHAN AKO. MASMAGANDA PA YUN! HAHAHA! So help me God -_- I let people down, I fucking ruin their perfect day and shyt like those. I'm sick of myself na ngay. uhhh Sick of myself being like this. Atleast alam ko wth -.- (buti alam mo) oo alam ko sinabi mo yan. Haha ok lang! Pramis! Ayoko na ngay magpakita. I'm planning not to go na.  After all the bullshit I gave to dat person. MAY GANA PA AKONG PUMUNTA?! Ang kapaaaal! Madami pa naman jan eh! Sina kwan at kwan! Oh diba? Hindi lang akoooo! <//3 Ok ang ganda ng kanta.. gusto mo pakinggan? Sige lagay ko link sa baba x'D Pakinggan mo ha? Maganda yan. Masakit para sakin <//////3 MADRAMA AKO ANO BA?! Oh so yun. Help me ah? Basahin mo nalang yung post ko kahapon. Yun yung pinaka una kong napansin or na.. idk how to call it. Hmm?? Paraan para bumalik emotions ko HAHAHAHA! Balak ko nga sana hindi pumasok bukas eh. NAHIHIYA NA AKO SA GINAWA KO. Kaputaputa :T Nakaka badtrip. Oo ako na mismo nabadtrip din sa ginawa ko. OWAIJHFSBJVZDSBRU13IO QRU01-3IMQ=0RC924-]CO12IM
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03Vq8cm9-23nucy802nt2r8990ny1908m!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Naiiyak na ako ah... naiiyak na ako. bare with me. LOOOOOOOOOL! I can't stay depressed my whole life! HELP MEEEEEEE! Pleeeaaaaassssssseeeeeeeeeee!!!! Pagpasensyahan niyo nalang ako ngayon -.- Salamat! Pramis babalik ako! HAHAHA IF YOU HELP ME!!! X'D Kahit konti lang. Kahit ...... NVM.

First attempt

Sa totoo lang hahaha wala lang x'D WTF Joke. May pagasa pa akoo! HAHAHA! Kasi ngay may isang friend na naghug saakin.. I was like.. daaaamn wtf is this im feeling? Tama ba? Is this joy?!??!? Sa wakas may naramdaman din ako -_- unti lang naman... hahaha! pero kailangan ko parin! I NEED MORE. I NEED YOUR LOOOVE, I NEED YOUR TIME, WHEN EVERYTHING'S WRONG.. YOU MAKE IT RIIIGHT. Joke. So parang ang kailangan ko lang para bumalik lahat ng nararamdaman ko ... A WARM HUG WITH LOVE<3 HAHAHA! LANDI KO. Pero totoo ah? -_- Let's see nalang if this works :T AS IF THERE'S SOMEONE OUT THERE TO HUG ME WITH LOVE?! SHYT ANG LANDI KO HAHAHAHA! No kadi.. kahit friendly hug lang. TRY LANG NATIN AH?! Seriously, I will thank you so much for this :'( HAHAHAHA! Try lang ah? kasi ngay pag babalik na my shytty emotion? Masakit inside <//3 HAHAHA! Hala totoo!!! Kaya natatakot ako HAHAHA! Pramis hindi ako makahinga... I can feel the weight lifting up my chest... AKA JOY....WTH. It's gonna overwhelm me.. I just have to find that one thing inside of me dat makes me strong.. ifk it's in here... i just have to latch onto it :'(

PLEASE HELP ME :'(

AKALA KO LANG

Damn! Yung akala ko bakasyon na.... naalala ko MAY EXAM PA PALA HANGGANG WEDNESDAY ... Masakit ah.. Masakit! Sobra <//3 HAHA! LBC 

NUMB

To be honest wala na kong nararamdaman na kahit ano. Kahit konting kilig wala na. Kahit masakit wala parin. The fuck just happened to me? Did my feelings shut down already? Hahaha alam ko di ka naniniwala.. WELL OK! Wala ng nagpapasaya saakin. Wala ng nakakasakit saakin wth. Medyo boring kasi meaningful sayo yung kanta tapos ngayon parang wala lang sayo. WEIRD SHIT. Haha di ko na ngay alam kung paano ko ibabalik yun O_O" Simula nung nalaman ko yung isang bagay na yun halaaaaaa wala naaaaaaaaaaaa wala ng maramdaman.. WALA NANG FEELINGS!!! But who cares right? As if anyone cares. Parang masmaganda pa nga to eh. haha! wala kang prinoproblema, hindi ka na masasaktan kasi MANHID KA NA. Pero sa totoo lang, kahit hindi ikaw yung nasasaktan, yung iba naman ang nasasaktan.. KAYA NAKAKASAKIT PARIN YUN. Wag ka, alam ko sinasabi ko atm! May times na " FEELINGS SUCK " Pero may times din na... what the hell just happened. San nagpunta -.-

PLEASE! ANYONE!! HELP ME BRING BACK MY FEELINGSSSSSSSSSSSS!!! 

Shit Ainna! Kaya mo yan! hahahaha! Medyo magulo na -.- HINDI NA PALA MEDYO. SOBRANG GULO NA PALA.. Ano ba?! Wala na yung isa. Yung isa bullshit. Yung isa abaaaaaa! Kung kailan pa give-up nko, saka siya umamin -_- ANO TO GAGUHAN?!??! HAHAHAHA! I am so fucked up atm. THAT FEELING WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE FEELING :T SO LAHAT YUN PANAKIP BUTAS LANG? Like what Jorj said. But nah.. never mind! Hahaha Ok lang naman eh. Ok na ok HAHA I'm serious this time. Tama na lol. Aso ?! Aso!?/? Habol pa sa wala ah! Lol Hayaan mo na. Hayaan ko na. Hayaan na natin lahat. Just let it be. Don't do it again. Yes, never again. Ayoko na tama na hahaha INAANTOK NA AKO! YUN LANG! GOODNIGHT! ASH WEDNESDAY PA BUKAS! AMEN.