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What if?

/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/: Do you like me? 

Me: Ummm

/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/: Well???

Me: No

/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/: Hahahaha good! 

BULLSHIT HAHAHAHAHA

What if?

/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/: Do you like me?

Me: Don't get mad, but I kinda do idk? 

/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/: Oh

Me: You mad? Disgusted? LALAYO KA NA BA? MAGABABAGO NA BA LAHAT?

/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/: Seen, 9:16pm

Me: :/

What if?

/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/: Do you like me?

Me: Yeah, I kinda do so please don't leave, I don't want our friendship to change or shit

/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/: It's okay :) I don't mind

Me: Really? Cool then! xD

WOOO TANGINA SANA GANYAN!!!!!!!!!

HINDI MAARI

Medyo masakit na hindi, gagu eh.. punta daw siya sa country na yun sa bday niya. Magkikita nanaman sila. ANO TO BDAY SEX?! HAHAHA JOKE! Pero hayaan ko na, 2nd option lang naman eh. Tignan mo, nakikipag skype dahil offline na yung mga kausap niya. Aba tangina, REBOUND BA?! Pero sabi ko nga, hayaan na. Kung baga parang S&P. jooke! Alam mo ba S&P? HINDI SO WAG NA! HAHAHAHA! Ayun nga, medyo parang wala lang sakin, siguro affected ako mga 20% kasi nga pagkatapos ng "gabing" yun, yung bday ni ate kwan, BORSHET....... WTF HAPPENED?? GAGU WALA NKONG MARAMDAMAN NA FEELINGS. HINDI NA AKO KINAKABAHAN. WALA NA POTA. NI ISANG EMOTION WALA! Eh paano? Ikaw ba naman gustong gusto ng makalimot, hindi na napansin ang dami na palang nainum na "JUICE" nag break down, sinabi na lahat ng tinatagong damdamin for 1year ata or mahigit pa dun? Lahat ng sakit na tinago ko LUMABAS LAHAT SA HARAP NG MADAMI. NA VIDEO PA AH? GUSTO MO MAKITA? SURE, JUST HMU! Totoo pala yung nasa TVD. Yung sobra ka ng nahihirapan at nasasaktan, gustong gusto mo ng iturn off yung.. HAHAHAHAHAHAA HUMANITY? HAHAHA! Feelings, emotions... yan nalang. Then shit! It fucking happened! Gago ang sarap ng pakiramdam!!! Hindi ka na magaalala kung nanjan si kung sino man yan! AS IN HINDI KA KAKABAHAN HAHAHA! WALA KANG MARARAMDAMAN, KAHIT SAKIT O PAGMAMAHAL WALA! (nawala na ako sa 1st topic) Hahahahaha! Yun na nga..... Huy atleast naka move on na ako -.-" Friends parin naman kami kahit ganun. Walang malisya. hahaha! Tapos ngayon naman, namimiss ko na magmahal... so try ko naman magmahal ng ibang tao. as in yung... BRAND NEW!! HAHAHAHA! "BRAND NEW" GAGU! XD Di ko pa naman mahal yung ngayon eh, kung mahal man, siguro as a fucking friend. tapos maybe I like /-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/ mga 25% ganun or 30%? aba tangina malandi kang pipit ka! HAHAHAHA! Pero minsan bumababa kasi masyadong... 'O.o dibale, try lang naman eh. Sinusubukan kong iparamdam pero parang hindi ngay gumagana gago HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Parang gusto kong sabihin na hindi kasi pag sinabi ko malaki yung chance na lumayo siya putangina masakit! Pag di ko sinabi, medyo bullshit sa loob pero ang maganda naman dun, is ganun parin friendship niyo, OH DIBA TANGINA TALAGA!!! Ganyan na ba mga tao ngayon? Sinabi lang yung totoo mong nararamdaman tangina lalayo na, iiba na tingin niya. ichichismis na. mag ggm na. magpaparinig na. mandidiri. putangina ikaw kaya iDECLINE feelings mo?! Masakit diba? Yeah I hope you know that. Wag gawin ha? HUWAG! PLEASE. ITAGO MO PA NARARAMDAMAN MO AINNA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! BULLFUCK 

Me-Faith: Kasalanan ko bang nagkakagusto na ako sa MALING TAO?

IDK

Pramis hindi ko na alam kung ano nararamdaman ko. TANGINA LANG. Ang gulo SOBRA. Tong mga kanta kasi na to napaka... NAKAKA INLOVE AMPOTA! PATI AKO NAKIKISAKAY NA KAHIT DI KARAPATDAPAT. DAMNIT ED! YOU DID IT AGAIN MAAAN! Eto yung kanta oh, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YYc9NPiVw7c Pakinggan mo, tignan mo iisipin mo din yung 'taong' yun... SO YOU CAN KEEP ME, INSIDE YOUR POCKET OF YOUR RIPPED JEANS, HOLDING ME CLOSER TIL OUR EYES MEET. YOU WON'T EVER BE ALONE, WAIT FOR ME TO COME HOME. Kung binabasa niya lang sana to no? HAHAHA Tangina. Wala na BUKING NA. Sabihin mo lang kung napakinggan mo na. MAG AGREE KA AH? KASI TOTOO DIBA?! NAKAKA POTA YUNG KANTA KINANA PAKSHET <3 Ieexplain ko nalang nararamdaman ko sa mga kanta, BAHALA KA NA KUNG GUSTO MONG BASAHIN! Loving can hurt sometimes but it's the only thing that I know. You know it can get hard sometimes but IT'S THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES US FEEL ALIVE. idk man pero pag tuwing di ko siya kinakausap through video chat or phone calls or shit like those or makita man lang picture niya pero sa totoo lang mas kwan ngay siya in real HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!  Hindi ngay completo araw ko tungunu. Nababadtrip or nawawalan na ako ng gana pag di yan ngyayari. Eto nanaman ako pota, nalalaglag sa di dapat ikalaglag. Yung taong hindi papahalagaan yung pagmamahal mo or effort or idk man. Kapag sinabi ko ano kayang mangyayari? HAHAHAHA Gago wala na. Tapos pag di ko naman sinabi parang... *tangina malay mo ngay? HAHAHAHAHAHA odibaaaaaaaa. IT'S TOO ROUGH. HAHAHAHAHA NANONOSE BLEED NA PO AKETCH. Hindi ko na ngay talaga alam kung ano gagawin ko... ako pa tong naghihintay tangina. hahahahaha, diba dapat ako yung nag sasabi. WAIT ANO NGA BA ..I.. Kasi ngay? parang ang pangit tignan kapag ganun... hindi naman sa pangit na 'pangit' GAGO HAHAHAHAHA.. BASTA HIHINTAYIN KO NALANG SIYA NA TANUNGIN AKO KUNG MAY GUSTO BA AKO SAKANYA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA TANGINA NO?! DATI AKO TALAGA YUNG NAG SASABI, UY ALAM MO, I KINDA LIKE YOU. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! POTA INAANTOK NA AKO. BUKAS NALANG ULIT. 

Hindi na pala

HAHAHAHAHA HINDI NA PALA. I TAKE IT ALL BACK. MEDYO? MEDYO LANG NAMAN! KAILANGAN KO LUMAYO HAHAHAHA MEDYO IT'S FOR THE BETTER. LIKE WHAT ALL PEOPLE SAAAAAAAY!!! MAKIKI GANUN NA DIN AKO. KBYE. MASAKIT, PERO KAILANGAN. 

UH OH 2

Kahit inaantok na ako sa sobrang pagod ngayong araw na to, gusto ko parin to itype -.- pota hahahaha! Pipikit na D: pero sige parin! I need to get this off my chest. Hindi naman agad agad syempre little by little. Alam ko tanga ako pero mapipigilan ko pa to xD Kasi pag di ko napigilan, SHIT WHAT THE FUCK AINNA?! Pero sana nga hindi ako malaglag. Tama ba to? mali ba? Kasi ayoko ngay malaglag, I swear. Sakit lang patutunguhan neto, like the fucking usual. Ok here it goes. We've been friends for so fucking long, I don't wanna ruin that :/ Mahirap na.  It's like I wanna tell you but I don't want you to know. Makes sense omg -.-' Honestly, I'm at my worst when I don't get to see you or talk to you or something like that, I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHY BUT IT'S THE FUCKING TRUTH. OKAY? OKAY. FUCK THIS, I'M GOING TO BED, AYOKO NG ISIPIN TO HHAHAHAHAAHAHA KAHIT SINABI KO I NEED TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST. I CAN'T I JUST CAN'T!!! BULLSHIT!!!!!!! (to be continued...)

UH OH

This sucks a lot!!! I know I still have feelings dun sa isa, ngayon nanaman parang bumabalik lahat. After 3 weeks of not speaking to eachother and trying to move on, Bigla nalang siya mag memessage na napaka nigga friendly. Edi eto?! Naguusap nanaman kami about life, anong bago sa buhay mo ganito ganyan. Syempre di na ako magsasalita about sa jowa niya -.- Alam kong masakit pero wala na eh, wala ng magagawa. Buti nga naguusap pa kami eh? diba? Kaysa sa wala na talaga, medyo ang dami ng pinagdaanan. Puyatan at kwentuhan. Halos parang 5 years na magkakilala pero 1year palang.   Kahit 1year palang parang ang close close na. Pero sa totoo lang oo ngay -.- Close na ng sobra sobra. Nag sendan na ng kung ano anong GIF <3 Mga landian HAHAHAHAHA! Nakakamiss yung mga gabing yun shit! Ngayon na naguusap kami medyo nalalaglag pa heart ko ukinana -.- pag tutunog yung notification :O!!!!! Ang mahirap nga lang, is meron na ngang iniibig yung malayo sakin, may iniibig tong malapit sakin :/ SAKIT NO? TANGINA TALAGA! HAHAHA! Actually dalawa problema ko dito sa malapit eh, may iniibig, tapos takot akong umamin. Siguro huwag nalang HAHAHAHA Baka lumayo eh, PARANG YUNG GINAWA NG MGA IBA SHIT TALAGA!!!!

 HUWAG ASSUMING GAGO! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! IKAW TO?! IKAW TO?! NO. Joke. Ikaw kade HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Dugyot no? Joke lang kadi, hindi talaga ikaw. NAKAKAHIYA NAMAN EH TUNGUNU DIS. Di pa ako maka tulog dahil dito, so many fucking things in my head. Nag-aalala pa ako dun sa isa kong kaibagan na kaputaputa, kung ok lang ba siya?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! SHIT NIYA EH X'DDD ..I.. HUY KAHIT GANUN KAMI SA ISA'T ISA KAIBIGAN KO PARIN YUNG "MABAIT" na YUN UKINANA. Oo, tapos hindi kaibigan ang tingin niya saakin.. HINDI PA NGA TAO EH! PAKYU! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! SAMA SAMA MO! POTA! PAGALING KA NA!!! MALAKAS KA NAMAN EH!! ALAM KO YAN HAHAHAHAHA! ASAHAN KO NALANG BUKAS NA OK KA NA! LOOOOOOL! NAMIMISS KO NA PISILIN YANG SKIN MO GAGO! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! TAPOS MAG RERED. ODIBA! MAKES SENSE O.o Ano daw?! Atleast tumatawa ka diba AYIE POTA! PWEDE BANG BUMISITA? HAHAHAHA! KAHIT SIGURO MGA 5MINS LANG HAHAHAHAHAHA PIPISILIN KO LANG BALAT MO! "BALAT" GAGO ANG PANGIT NG SENTENCE HAHAHAHAHAHA! Ang haba haba nanaman ng sinusulat ko -.- medyo di ako titigil pag di ko pa nalalabas lahat. WALANG MAKAUSAP EH, WALA KASI YUNG GUSTO KONG KAUSAPIN!! NAKA "HIGA" SA KUNG SAN MAN HAHAHAHAHAHA! Haaaaaaay -scratches head

Ay btw, kaka lagnat ko lang kahapon, gumaling ako agad. Wanna know why? SECRET NA AH BAKIT KO NAMAN SASABIHIN LAHAT?! PUBLIC TO, DUH. HAHAHA! Di ko napansin 1:10am na pala. masyado na akong nagiisip ng kung ano ano. tama na. itutulog ko nalang to. HUY YUNG ISA JAN! HAHAHAHAHA! OK KA LANG? HOPE SO! BITCH. X'D JOKE LANG TO NAMAN -.-

FIRST DAY OF SENIOR YEAR

Well, there I was... NAKAUPO TAWA NG TAWA. I really hate introducing myself, I swear >.<

It's awkward, It's inappropriate, It's annoying, It fucks me up HAHAHA! Joke >_> pero ayoko nga eh! Ano ba? So yeah, bumalik yung first bestfriend ko na si Nicole Gumpad haha! Saya no? Tapos may tatlo pang bago, si Lea, Renz at Omer HAHAHAHA! Tska si Ashlynn bumalik siya with Gumpad! :) And thennnn, new batch nanaman ng mga teachers. I don't wanna talk about this muna hahahahaha :P Well they're.... ok :) 

OH AND BY THE WAY, ADVISER PALA NAMIN SI MA'AM ROSE <3 

Wala na akong maisip na maisulat Hahahaha. Inarrange na kami ni Ma'am which is kinda.. sad kasi hindi kami magkakatabi :< Inayos kami Temporary lang, for 1 week. tapos ayun naaaaa MAG PERMANENT NA. Sana katabi ko si kwan..... HAHAHAHAHAHA! Joke landi mo gago! :P

So ayun, katabi ko si Uno for 1 week pero nagpapalit kami ni patrick para katabi ko si jorj tas katabi niya sina uno. HAHAHA Odiba! So ayun, tuloy parin ang pag iintroduce hahaha pero hayaan na! 

Well I think that's all for now O.o Ayoko na ituloy eh, MABITIN KA! HAHAHAHAHA Madami pa dapat akong sasabihin pero wag na. Masyado nang private to eh. DIBA AINNA? <3

So umm....

Here's the thing... I'm getting myself to move on from someone... so here I am talking to a new one I mean like.. this could help me move on even though it's haaard. I mean... how can I even be MORE attached to someone who doesn't even reply to my messages even calls or things like those... Masakit diba? Pero tama lang.. habol pa ainna ah! HAHAHA Habol pa sa wala -____-" <//3 Kung baga Khloe at Lamar? Yung wala nang magawa si Khloe kundi humiwalay na for the best :'( It may hurt alot but.. yun nga.. IT'S FOR THE BEST. I mean may nahanap na siya... ako din medyo may nahanap na pero hindi naman mismong nahanap. BUT DAMN THIS IS HARD FOR ME. I have someone irl and online. The one irl is just... idk I get nervous when she's around.. I get shy and shit.... Trying to be myself para hindi mahalata :) SO THAT'S WHY I'M REALLY CONFUSED. Malandi ba? HAHAHAHA! Hayaan mo na, IKAW DIN NAMAN EH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! 

Joke lang ha? :P Walang personalan dito ate/koya! HAHAHAHAHAHA! So yeah........ Meron dun meron dito Ainna, ano to? 2timing? Wag ah! That's bad! First thing's first..... you did this last time.. you screwed up.... don't do it again.... AHAHAHAHA! Oh tama na!!!! Borshet. Matulog na ako! Hahahaha maaga pa bukas... Gonna hangout with friends :) FINALLY

SHADY ASS HOE

Seriously? I don't get WHY ARE YOU BEING SO SHADY TONIGHT?! What the fuck did I do to you that you start acting like you're in your fucking PERIOD. ACTUALLY NO, YOU DON'T HAVE THAT BUT TO ME YOU DO HAVE!!! DUDE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! DID YOUR SLUTS TELL YOU SOMETHING ABOUT ME THAT YOU TURN YOUR BACK ON ME RIGHT AWAY? WELL GUESS WHAT! THE OTHER ONE IS IMMATURE AND THE OTHER ONE IS VERY UNDISCIPLINED AND DISRESPECTFUL TO BE FUCKING HONEST. AND YOU? YOU NEED TO FACE REALITY!!! IT IS NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!! WITH YOUR ATTITUDE LIKE THAT, DUDE YOU'RE NOT GETTIN ANYTHING WITH THAT SHADY ASS OF YOURS!!! SO GET OVER YOURSELF PLEASE! JUST PLEASE!!!!!!! STOP DOING THAT!!!! IT'S FUCKING ANNOYING!!!!!!!!!YOU WANT PEOPLE TO GET TO LIKE YOU?! WELL DAMN!! LITTLE ADVICE HERE,  

DON'T BE SHADY FOR FUCK SAKE!!!!

FINALLY

Ugh! Finally he fucking forgave me already! This is a tough summer for me... AGAIN! LOL! I mean I was mad at him from last year's summer and now he got mad at me this summer. BULLSHIT RIGHT? Just kidding. Nakahinga na din ng MALUWANG XD I can't stand people mad at me maslalo na kapag medyo close kayo or close kayo... Shiet! Nilakasan ko nalang loob ko na mag explain nanaman and he finally listened ;O So glad he did tho. unlike the past explanations SEEN SEEN SEEN SEEN SEEN SEEN <//////////3 But it still hurts tho, I did it for someone I love for the sake of not losing him. Holy fuck -.-" I mean I love them both... It's just, the other one has decided to let go too.. and he's like.. my fucking pal already... who's always there to goof around with ONLINE. I honestly missed him O_O" we like, chat every single day then ONE NIGHT CHANGED EVERYTHING but I'm trying to fix it already. So it's like... mawawala friendship ko sa isa para sa isa. MASAKIT! UKINANA DAYTA!!! HAHAHA! Wala eh, ganun talaga. Yun lang yung tanging paraan. Nagexplain nanaman ako kasi ayokong pumasok ng 4th year na galit siya saakin dude what the fuck. I can't handle that -.- Weak ba? HAHAHA Wala eh, di ako matigas. PASENSYA NA. MASAYDONG MALAMBOT HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Wait naiihi ako wtfffffffffffffff! BRB! 

Ok... pagkatapos ko umihi I went down to get beer! ;o magisa ko.. medyo masakit hahaha! San mig light lang naman eh. so yeah :) IMMA CELEBRATE THIS NIGHT ALL BY MYSELF!!! CHEERS AINNA!!! CHEERS!!! X'D I am now losing my mind I mean like.... my head is starting to hurt. maybe drinking isn't the solution to celebrate right now... damn.. what have I got myself into........ Ok bye. I feel bad about myself already..... GOODNIGHT!!!!! :)))